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Im so happy. my marks are almost gone and i havent cut in like a week and a half
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[02 Oct 2004|05:41pm] |
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My name is Shi and I've been SI'ing for almost a year now. I started burning around March and I started scratching in May.
I have a lot of stressors in my life and that just makes things worse. I'm seeing a good therapist, but it doesn't really help.
I think it would be easier to stop if I had a support system, but ever since my ex and I broke up, my friends have all walked off, one by one.
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[02 Oct 2004|06:48pm] |
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Well I remember updating about my bitchy friends not caring about me. Im just updating that they planned a surprise party for Ashley and I cant go, and I tried caring by saing Happy Birthday and I slipped it out because of that they end out friendship. So It was solved pretty easily and harshly... yeah, i'm doing great! I'm being VERY saracastic right now. Yes... thats my update.
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[02 Oct 2004|07:03pm] |
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Name: Meghan or Meg
Age: Fifteen
SI? Yes
When did I start? Last night
Last night, I realized after I made a huge mistake disobaying my parents and seeing a guy at a football game they forbid me to see, and going to the park with him and my friend cait and zach... I realized how much of a fuck up I really am. My friends say that I'm not, and I could never tell them what I did, because I promised my very best friend that I never would cut myself again, but... I couldn't stand feeling like I let my Mom and Dad down again... No one understands, at least... they don't. they don't want me to be punk.. they dont want me to paint my nails black and wear what i do.. they want me to be like everyone else in my school, or thats what it seems.. i told my dad im not going to be a prep, and he said yes you are... i dont want to be someone im not.. im so sick of my school and making dumb mistakes over and over with guys. they think i cant control myself, and say if i disobay them again they are gonna send me to christian school, or a all girls school... i love my parents. and im not abused, but.. i feel like i have to be perfect, and i cant be. i never will be. i dont know what to do, and last night i lost it. i dont try to kill my self, i never would.. but i feel like a failure.. i feel like the only thing i do right is mess up... im so lost..
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